jayne

Just before I was about to attend a  work meeting yesterday someone suggested we meet over lunch at the Italian restaurant. Arrgghhh!!!! Not Pasta!! I said I would prefer to eat at another place where I knew that I could get chicken and salad and  few others agreed. So it was a good start to a lunch meeting!

However then I got told that the other person who works with me will not be replaced immediately when he leaves at the end of the week.

To say I was not happy is putting it mildly! We have been complaining of the workload for some months now and this is only going to increase the pressure on everyone. I was really annoyed and ate most of my meal in silence. I didn’t have dessert, but I did have a skim coffee.

I thought about it a bit more and did work out what I was feeling. I was feeling like I was taken for granted! As if I didn’t matter to them. Once the lunch was over I went and had a talk to my boss. I explained that the workload is already brodering on unmanageble and I wasn’t willing to burned out while they saved some money!

As a result I am now trying to set it up so I the same hours but over less days. This will reduce some of the stress but not affect my income. I am going to review my work and stop accepting so many people and set a strict limit on how many appointments I take a day. I find this really hard to do when I have tried in the past but I am determined. If I burn out and get sick then they will just find someone else to do the work. If I don’t take care of myself then nobody else will.

I have declared 5-6 am My Time! This morning I got up and did 30 minutes on the treadmill and then 30 minutes of relaxation / meditation. I feel really good for doing it and I am sitting here now with my cup of green tea feeling pretty good about myself.

Have a good day everyone!

I didn’t lose any weight this week but I did lose 2″ which I am really happy about. TOM arrived and I always gain weight then so the fact the scales stayed the same means I will probably have a BIG loss next week.

 I have really improved my eating. I am bascially sticking to the 3 meals, 2 snacks. I haven’t skimped on portions because I don’t want to feel really hungry and then binge.

I ate in the car one day this week. I have decided that was the last time. I just have to rule out eating in the car completely.

I have made more of an effort with my appearance. It is so easy to drop into thinking Why Bother? so  I am making time in the mornings to spruce myself up a bit.

  This forum is wonderful! I only wish I had more time to post, read and send messages to people. I really appreciate the messages I have had. Thankyou, they help.

I am off to do some relaxation exercises and then some writing  for my emotional eating journal. I am finally

HOME ALONE !

Where to begin… well I have realised that I can’t lose this weight on my own that’s for sure! My weight is now 198 lbs. It was 204 a few months ago. I’ve been an emotional eater for years. The last few years have been very stressful and so my weight kept going up and up. It’s reached the point where my health is affected. Now I am at risk of diabetes which runs in the family and the Dr is really nagging me about my weight.

I started a journal about my emotional eating and that has really helped me. It made me realise the need for support, that it’s Ok to ask for help. So here I am and it feels like I’ve come to the right place!

I have joined the Hot Rods and I’m strapped in, have my helmet on and I’m rearing to go! I look forward to meeting and making some friends on the way !